Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
"This above all: to thine own self be true,
And it must follow, as the night the day,
Thou canst not then be false to any man."
Hamlet, William Shakespeare
I am not being true to myself. In fact tonight I am going to a meeting where I fully intend to lie about how I think a marriage should work to the pastor who is presiding over my wedding. Then at my wedding I plan on lying in church about my marital intent. Does this miss I am having second thoughts? No. What is means is the invitations have already gone out and therefore I am going to suck it up, lie in church and willingly say out loud that the relationship I have with Guy is one of submission when in reality, its not. We are equal partners and companions. That will never change. We respect each other as equals not as leader and follower. I don't need someone to lord over me. I need someone who is going to be there to tough out the bad times and enjoy the good times. I don't need guidance, I need love and friendship. The funny thing about all of this is the fact that getting married in the church has essentially induced in me a crisis of beliefs and has pushed me away from the idea of organized religion altogether. If Jesus really felt about women the way the church preaches then I want nothing to do with Christianity. The most amusing (and possibly the only amusing thing) about this who ridiculous and emotionally detrimental situations is that it could have been avoided. Had I stood my ground and opted to have a really small self funded wedding, most likely a barbecue, outside . Instead we are having a huge, let me repeat huge, wedding inside a church (which makes no sense because neither of us are all that religious) followed by a reception at a beach side resort. I sold out for something I never wanted to begin with and it definitely wasn't worth it. Who would have thought following ignoring Hamlet's advice would get me in this much trouble?
Friday, April 17, 2009
The best thing about San Diego is the multitude of independent business. When it came time for Guy and me to pick out a place to have our rehearsal dinner everyone had something to say about it but no one trusted the local restaurants to know how to handle a party of thirty people. Guy's parents really pushed for Cheesecake Factory but we insisted that if people were coming from all over the world to our beloved San Diego they should get a taste of what our locals had to offer, not something they could get in any medium sized plus city in the US. Guy and I decided that the very best place to showcase our local cuisine would be the Parkhouse Eatery, which also happens to be out very favorite restaurant.
We found Parkhouse completely by accident. In an attempt to widen our perceptions of our fair city on a multiple levels we decided the best place was to start with one of the biological needs, edible sustenance. Guy bought me a ton of random gift certificates for Christmas, one of which just happened to be this cute quirky homey place on Park Boulevard, from which you can see our church. We went, I had blackberry pancakes, he had a lamb burger and we've been going back ever since. We recommend everything. And now we get to share our favorite place with our very closest family and friends.
Monday, April 13, 2009
Numbers Eleven through Twenty.
- Eleven: Stay in the Ice Hotel
- Twelve: Visit all 50 states
- Thirteen: Plant a garden
- Fourteen: Make bread from scratch
- Fifteen: See the Nile river
- Sixteen: Visit all 7 continents
- Seventeen: Learn to surf
- Eighteen: Go on an overnight backpacking trip
- Nineteen: See the Cubs play at Wrigley Field (again)
- Twenty: Go scuba diving
Friday, April 10, 2009
Happy Friday! These are some of my favorite Friday songs!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
More wedding music!
1234 By The Plain White T's
Today by Joshua Radin which I discovered thanks to Ellen and Portia's wedding video which is the one posted directly below this one. Aren't they just the cutest couple? Portia's dress was simply amazing.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Being on the cusp of twenty-two years of age and college graduation, I am still trying to figure out who I am. Or maybe its just that I have too many. I want to do everything, see everything, experience everything, be everything. I have come to terms with the fact that there are some things I will never be. I will never be six feet tall. I will never be a mathematician. I will never be a cat person. (Don't get me wrong, I like cats even though they make my eyes itch, burn and swell closed, but as much as I like all fur covered, four footed things, I just prefer the undying loyalty and adoration that only a dog can give). I have a much harder time coming to terms with that fact there are things I want to do that I might not have the chance to do. There are many uncertainties and questions that are beginning to arise. There are also I whole lot of things that begin with "I want to..." that are coming to mind.
One thing I do know (or at least know that I don't know) is after four years of college I still have no idea what I want to do with my life, so I'm going to graduate school to give myself more time. Now of course I must decide where I want to go and what I want to do. Is it worth the money? Will I ever graduate with my master's degree? Am I motivated enough to finish. Am I smart enough to get in?
Some possible answers....
+San Diego State University has an amazing children's literature program where I would get to spend most of my days delving into the beauty and complexity of children's literature.
Pros: 1:Wouldn't have to move to some far away place where I don't know anyone and my family is still close b. 2:In state tuition. 3:Guy can stay at his current job which he loves more than he thought he could ever love a job.
Cons: 1:If I do decide I want to get a PhD it looks better if you go to a different school. 2:I really want to move away from San Diego. 3:I have no job lined up here 4:We both feel it may be one of our only realistic opportunities to move out of California.
+ SJSU Library Science Program online
Pros: 1: Online so I would be able to work full time while getting my degree 2:I love my job at the library now and could see myself making a career out of it. 3:Wouldn't have to move and Guy could keep his job
Cons: 1:Much more expensive than actually attending SDSU. 2:The degree does not offer up teaching potential like the children's literature program would 3:I worry that without the in class interaction I will not be motivated
+Art Institute of Pittsburgh Online Photography
Pros: 1:I have always wanted pursue photography professionally 2:The program is online and thus I would be able to work while obtaining my career 3:I already own most of the required equipment
Cons: 1:Out of state tuition 2:Its a longer program, another four years 3:Not really a graduate program 4:Has nothing to do with my current degree
+A two year vet tech program at the local community college
Pros: 1:I have always wanted to work with animals 2:Job ready right out of school 3:Possibly cheaper vet care for the pups.
Cons: 1:Yet another program that has nothing to do with my current degree 2:Makes my current degree one epic waste of time
Thursday, March 26, 2009
"Real isn't how you are made," said the Skin Horse. "It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but Really loves you, then you become Real."
"Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit.
"Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "When you are Real you don't mind being hurt."
"Does it happen all at once, like being wound up," he asked, "or bit by bit?"
"It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get all loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."
Excerpt from The Velveteen Rabbit by Margery Williams
Sunday, March 15, 2009
My best friend, who is very possibly thee best friend of all best friends is sending Guy and I on a ten day tour of Europe, with one of our stops being Rome. Guy has always wanted to go to Rome. His father is somewhat of an aficionado as far as their history is concerned and that interest has rubbed off on Guy over the past twenty-one years. I can't even imagine how cool it is going to be to see all the sights, eat authentic pasta, drink some exceptional wine on the roof of our hotel overlooking Rome and spend time with my newly assigned husband. We just booked our hotel for Rome at Hotel Forty-Seven and I am so excited about it that I wanted to post some pictures.
To see in Rome:
- The Colosseum
- The Forum
- The Spanish Steps
- The Trevi Fountain
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Numbers One through Ten.
Inspired By Mighty Girl!
Picture courtesy of Rolf Hicker
- One: Own a home
- Two: Get Married
- Three: Have or adopt at least one child
- Four: See Orcas in the wild
- Five: Be a foster pet parent
- Six: Learn to drive
- Seven: Have a job where I can take my dog to work with me
- Eight: Have a dog well-behaved enough to take to my job where I can take my dog with me
- Nine: Take a photography class
- Ten: Get a tattoo