Disappointment (dĭs'ə-point'mənt) (noun): The condition or feeling of being disappointed.

I am disappointed in myself, in my lack of motivation. I want to be better and yet I for some reason cannot force myself to do anything. Everyday I disappoint myself in some way. I makes excuses for myself and I strive to be better mentally but I struggle when it comes to committing myself to it.

Today, I publicly commit myself to bettering myself both physically and mentally. Everyday I will do something everyday to promote mental and physical health. No more prolonged bouts of self-pity, no more binge eating.